2009/02/09

February in Mrs. Seal's class

It is the ninth day of the dreary month of February ... for years I have hated February. All kinds of bad things have happened in February, and it just seemed like it was bound to be a horrid month every year. But this year, for some odd reason, it feels like third grade.

In the third grade, Mrs. Seal (the "meanest teacher in the school") started every morning with a pledge to the flag and a patriotic song. I'm nearly fifty years old now, and I wonder in amazement at the fact that Mrs. Seal had not gone deaf in self-defense. Oh, we children could sing all right. But some of us also took piano lessons. There was always a student accompanist for the patriotic song. I remember because I was one of them.

There was a calendar in Mrs. Seal's class. A big one. It was on the wall across the room from the big windows, and every month there was a new one. The students took turns putting the date (a number on a construction paper circle) onto the calendar each morning. This special privilege entailed the use of rubber cement. I adore rubber cement. Have you ever used it? Nothing else smells like rubber cement, and nothing else does that particular kind of gluey, stringy, stickiness. The lid has a brush on its underside, so you have to lift out the brush, all heavy with the wonder of the stickiness, and you have to break the string - like getting honey out of the honey pot and onto your toast. Then you paint the circle (on the back), and then you put it in the next square on the calendar (right side up), and it sticks. There is it, in all its red circle-y perfection. The next day in February.

February used to have three big days in it. There was Valentine's Day (admittedly a bit confusing, but there were cookies) and there was President Lincoln and President Washington. The presidents have black construction paper silhouettes for the calendar instead of numbers on a circle. And we had to put those up early - we weren't in school on those days.

How odd that third grade's February was the month of patriotic songs, rubber cement, and Presidents' Days. I do not remember gloomy weather, rain and sogginess, or trudging back up the hill to go home in it. I remember the red circles and black silhouettes on the calendar. I remember Mrs. Seal - the meanest teacher in the school. I remember how horrified I was on the first day of school to discover that I had to be in her class (everyone knew she was the meanest teacher, and my mother simply did not care!), and I remember a hundred things about being her student that year. I remember order, and calm, and creativity in music and drawing and even square dancing, and I remember my reading book. Today, while I look out my window at the bare tress and the chilly, soggy mud underlying everything, all at once I've got the urge to find some construction paper and open a pot of rubber cement.

2009/02/04

Cure

The cure for anything is salt water: sweat, tears or the sea.

Isak Dinesen

2009/02/03

Now that's what I call a library patron!

Most Americans take their library privileges seriously. A recent Zogby poll found just six out of a hundred people confessed to not returning library books. KPCC’s Special Correspondent Kitty Felde found one library patron who’s more conscientious than most.

Kitty Felde: Chesley Sullenberger has a problem. He borrowed a book from the Danville Library – and it’s overdue. To complicate matters, the book was an interlibrary loan from Fresno State.

Sullenberger contacted librarians and asked for an extension on the loan and a waiver on the overdue fine. The reason? The book is in the cargo hold of the US Airways plane that made an emergency landing last month in New York’s Hudson River. Sullenberger is the pilot who made that landing. No one was seriously injured.

Fresno State library officials were impressed with Sullenberger’s sense of responsibility… and waived all fines and fees, even the one for losing the book. The library’s going one step further: when the replacement book goes up on the shelf, it will have a special template in front, dedicating it to Chesley “Sully” Sullenberger.

Oh, by the way. The topic of that book? Professional ethics.

Caesura

She knew there was something ahead. Something to look forward to. There would be another flash. There would be another moment of glory and purest light. She knew it would happen.

So, looking out, she went on.

She climbed. She scrambled. She fell and scratched herself on the brambles, and she skipped willy-nilly down the sides of the slopes. She forded streams and crossed bridges, and even burnt a few.

She fell in love with another traveler, and they bore children and taught them to climb and splash and run and navigate by way of the stars. And looking out, they went on.

The children grew tall. They set off for other slopes and vistas, and still she climbed.

And all at once, she stopped. She looked. Looking out, she stopped stock still and wondered what to do.

Caesura.

Caesurae.

An audible pause in the poetry.

Stop.

There are two types of caesurae: masculine and feminine. Two of us in our caesura. He could not stop. Did not stop. But he saw it too. She had stopped.

Shouldn't she be doing something? Going somewhere? Shouldn't she be moving? But what do I do with this? Where do I go? How do I do it? Shouldn't I know?

Just be quiet, he told her. Wait a minute. Catch your breath. You will know it when you see it. Look around. Recover. Wait here.

Stop.

The fog cleared, and the sound was the surf. The flash came again. And again. The sun began to glitter on the edges of the waves, and the breeze blew salty tears across her face.

And looking out, she went on.

2009/02/02

Sweet heart

Every once in awhile, after a quarter century of marriage, The Great Husband says something to me so utterly perfect that it's actually better than chocolate. This weekend it happened again. It was one of those "remember that?" conversations, and mostly it was about how little of "this" we could have predicted "then."

The Great Husband told me that he agrees with C. K. Dexter Haven. I can be whatever I want. I'm his "redhead." (I don't have red hair, but I knew what he meant.)

(From the Cary Grant/Katherine Hepburn movie The Philadelphia Story)

She's in a jam. Her ex-husband proposes marriage to her because she's finally figured out how to have "the one essential: an understanding heart. And without that you might just as well be made of bronze." She still loves him, of course. Her better self always did. But she knows what she has been - so she asks him:

Tracy Lord: Oh Dexter you're not doing it just to soften the blow?

C. K. Dexter Haven: No.

Tracy Lord: Nor to save my face?

C. K. Dexter Haven: Oh, it's a nice little face.

Tracy Lord: Oh Dexter, I'll be yar now, I promise to be yar.

C. K. Dexter Haven: Be whatever you like, you're my redhead.